Words on a page

She's curled up on the bed
Reading
Listening to the sound of the rain
as it pounds on the iron roof.

It's early afternoon
And she's escaped to her room
Away from the people
To the solitude.

She loves that she can do this
Be selfish
Having only to think for herself
And take care of only her needs.

No constant demanding
Of her attention or her love
No pulling or twisting
Of her time.

Just her
Left alone to her thoughts
Her feelings and ideas
A chance to bring order to the chaos of her mind.

A chance to stop
And to reflect
To organise her life
And to plan.

A time to listen
To dig deep and find answers
To address who she really is
And not just come up with some superficial words.

The book has been discarded now
And instead pen and paper are her tools
A chance to express herself
Through words on a page.

Enjoy Life

A dew drop glistening in the morning light,
A star shining brightly in the dark night.

The smell of spring time in the air,
Love and laughter that you share.

The taste of chocolate on your tongue,
Embarking on a journey just begun.

The warmth of your child's embrace,
Making sure you slow your pace.

Savouring each moment as it arrives,
Enjoy life - just don't survive.

Where has the time gone?

Ok, so it has been a while. A lot longer than I'd planned. A few times I've sat down to write a post only to come up with a totally blank mind. Lights on, no-one home type of thing.

This time I am determined to get this posted.

So it has been 3 months now since I quit work. As mentioned before the first few weeks were a struggle. I suppose I hung on in a vain attempt to keep my 'identify'. I know it's probably me, but I felt (and still fee to a degree) to be a 'someone' in today's society you need a work role to define you. I know the role I am now taking is an important one and one that will have far reaching consequences in the future when my children grow and embark on their life journey, but 'mother' as my sole role takes some getting used to.

So 3 months and I'm warming to the role. I love been able to watch the kids run at the school cross country (I'd missed the last few years due to work); I love being able to help out at school when needed (today was Mother's Day Stall); and I am loving the other 'roles' I have taken on in my 'spare' time.

I've got back into coaching in a big way. Not only am I coaching my daughter's hockey team, but am also coaching two school teams as well. The school teams also involves umpiring, but it's not as scary as I remember! It's great to be able to teach kids and help them develop, gain confidence, and above all have fun playing a great sport.

I've also joined a gym. I'm not the most dedicated person when it comes to trying to get fit and making myself go to classes (RPM and Boxing are great) helps me with my goal. I've also surprised myself by making a 5.50am class twice in a row - not bad for a person who hardly wakes up before 6.30am most mornings.

The kids had their first school holiday in nearly 5 years where they didn't have to go into vacation care. We had a wonderful holiday and I ended up the coast with them for 6 days which was just wonderful.

There have of course been numerous other things I've done over the past 3 months - hubby's tax was a pretty big accomplishment! I'm currently in the middle of sorting out our holiday which is very fast approaching. Six weeks in Europe - four of them touring in a RV. We are all so looking forward to it.

Until we get back my 'plans' for the future have been put on hold, but as soon as we are back the reinvention of Rell will begin.

So I promise to improve my blogging - I'm sure I've got a post or two in me to write!